Hello, Emma here!
I’m a 33-year-old. Living in London, United Kingdom.
It can be said that alcohol dependency can be isolating. For many of us struggling with drinking, it can feel lonely. When it comes to developing a new relationship with alcohol. I believe that we as a community must share our feelings and connect with each other. Community is essential for maintaining and enjoying sobriety. It helps us to avoid feelings of isolation, rediscovering self, and connecting with others, who understand what you’re experiencing.
I’m wanting to share my journey (with a little trepidation). I hope that by opening up, and discussing my sober journey, I can help others.
Almost a year ago my body decided quite simply ‘no more vino’!
After unexpectedly being faced with a mirage of health challenges. I realised that it was time to deal with my drinking and my relationship with alcohol.
When I first started my sober journey, I realised I couldn’t remember how to socialise, de-stress or even have fun without a drink. I had relied on alcohol for almost every emotion. I was now facing the world, my problems, worries, and feelings all without the help of a drink.
I knew I was drinking too much but somehow, I trained my brain to believe the excuses. That I was functioning! I was paying my bills on time! I was allowed to enjoy myself … right?! Wrong! I knew the effects of alcohol from a young age, but not enough to stop me. I didn’t understand how anyone could have fun without drinking. Society today seems as if it is advertising alcohol in every possible way. I’m now wanting to show what the real effect of alcohol looks like, not the glamourised picture it portrays.
To give you an idea of my drinking patterns, I started to drink in my late teens. When I was out with friends on the weekend, then after work drinks and in the end drinking indoors . I was always able to manage a full-time job. However, slowly, my productiveness started to decrease at work too.
I joined Hello Sunday Mornings four years ago. I always wished I was brave enough to try and be sober sooner.
I was always putting it off! Often, when I was lying in bed on the weekend with the worst anxiety and beer fear possible. I would make the commitment to get sober. I would say to myself that I was 100 per cent not drinking again. However, by Tuesday – I was back! Buying a bottle after work to complement my dinner (a dinner which I probably would never eat anyway).
It’s been one year since I last had a drink. Something I genuinely didn’t think would be possible. My health is improving. It has been challenging at times! I haven’t been as social as I was before. I find certain places still triggering for me, but I’m learning as I go.
Please do ask for help if you feel drinking is becoming a priority. I’m not a sober specialist or expert, but I am human, and I can be honest. I first-hand know it can feel like you’re not getting anywhere or you’re not feeling any benefits once you stop. Keep going! I promise the sober world is beautiful.
Good luck and keep well.
The ways that have helped me so far:
◦ Reading real-life stories and learning each day from someone else’s perspective
◦ Hello Sunday has amazing support
◦ Keep a tight circle of friends or family you can trust available to talk
◦ Breathe and breathe again
◦ Think forward and enjoy every sober moment